As the neighbor’s leaf blower roars as I’m trying to get some peace and quiet I wonder why some days are like this. I’m irritable, cranky, everything seems to bother me. Is it the almost full moon? The lack of sleep? The amount of sugar I have been eating lately? Hormones?
Yet, thirty minutes after going alone into my office, putting in earplugs, getting some tea and lighting some candles I am cured. Re-energized. Not feeling tired. And it dawns on me, I have been tired and irritable because I have not taken time, any real quiet time for me recently. Not even a few minutes.
Last month I was extremely energized. I felt great. I realize now it is because I was doing a yoga challenge and doing hot yoga or hot yoga fusion a couple of times a week. It quieted me, it calmed me. It made me breath. Since then I have been running ragged, have not had a hot yoga class in weeks and have been taking care of everyone except for me. Even my dogs have gotten more TLC from me lately than I have given myself. What I wouldn’t give for a tummy rub…..
But today in my office as I took deep breaths and quieted, I felt better. More energized. Revived. Strange how moving more slowly and quieting myself gives me energy instead of making me tired.
I wouldn’t trade my job as a Mom for anything in the world. I am so incredibly grateful for my daughters and the many, many mom roles that come with it. But, as a mom I am always doing for others. Every day. My daughters, my husband, my dogs, even our pet rabbits. The to-do list is endless… but I need to remind myself to add a quiet “me time” to that to-do list, whether it be a yoga class, sitting alone in my office with tea and candles for a few minutes or going on a short walk without my dogs, just by myself.
I feel like every year I remind myself of this yet every year I forget. But now I know the sign, the trigger; tiredness! From now on when I am tired I am going to try to remember to ask myself, have you had your quiet time? Have you taken time for you? Have you nurtured the nurturer?
Blessings for a quiet week ahead,